Thoughts as we wait. . .

Eric and I have found ourselves really appreciating the sounds and songs of Steven Curtis Chapman. SCC’s honest and amazing way of putting his thoughts and feelings to music has been a door for us to express and identify our emotions these past couple of months and years, really. Music is a ministry and a way that God uses to access our souls deepest caverns. Even throughout our dating days Eric and I would send carefully selected songs to one another. The lyrics had a way of expressing more than words could say.

Steven’s newest CD was written months after his daughter’s death, months after the earthquakes in China and illustrates the ongoing grieving and releasing process we, as humans, go through. Some songs are “hard” to listen to, and some are “hard” for me to accept and wrap my mind around. But God has blessed us immensely through the words and their truth of our loving Father.

This song in particular has me picturing Heaven: Eric and I walking hand in hand with ALL of our children, including Isaac and Alivia, and hopefully even Isaac's birth family. How beautiful! Some days I just can't help but long for it.

Heaven is the face

Heaven is the face of a little girl

With dark brown eyes

That disappear when she smiles

Heaven is the place

Where she calls my name

Says, “Daddy please come play with me for a while”

God, I know, it’s all of this and so much more

But God, You know, that this is what I’m aching for

God, You know, I just can’t SEE beyond the door

So right now

Heaven is the sound of her breathing deep

Lying on my chest, falling fast asleep while I sing

And Heaven is the weight of her in my arms

Being there to keep her safe from harm while she dreams

And God, I know, it’s all of this and so much more

But God, You know, that this is what I’m longing for

God, You know, I just can’t SEE beyond the door

But in my mind’s eye

I can SEE a place

Where Your glory fills every empty space

All the cancer is gone

Every mouth is fed

And there’s no more goodbye

And no more not enough

And there’s no more enemy

Heaven is a sweet maple syrup kiss

And a thousand other little things I miss with her gone

Heaven is the place where she takes my hand

And leads me to You

And we both run into Your arms

Oh God, I know, it’s so much more than I can dream

It’s far beyond anything I can conceive

So God, You know, I’m trusting You until I SEE

Heaven in the face of my little girl

There is a special story behind the word SEE. If you have a chance, you should read it in SCC's beautywillrise album, where this song is found.

Here is an Internet site of the song:
http://www.google.com/url?q=http://popup.lala.com/popup/576742231835344525&ei=vp9ZS527Ocm8lAec_dTwBA&sa=X&oi=music_play_track&resnum=1&ct=result&cd=2&ved=0CAwQ0wQoADAA&usg=AFQjCNHt6OsZSbeorRW0bTYY3zVf5bYL2w